Since 9.50 out of 10 of my entries are me anxious, pissed, or cornfused about something, I decided that I would discuss something positive today. Because I write for me, primarily, I won't apologize for the cheese stench that is about to overwhelm you.
I have the most incredible, most delicious, most understanding partner in the world. And through this man, I have been welcomed into the most loving, most interesting, selfless family in the world, who are Finances mother and stepfather. We share a beautiful home that we designed and built together. Aside from the home equity loan we took against the house to rennovate, we are living practically debt free. We own a lot which we are preparing to sell, that will allow us the financial ability to travel the world for a year after we marry next spring in one of the most beautiful settings of Montana I have seen...on a piece of mountain land that will likely one day be ours to share with our children...and their children. We have built a relationship founded on trust, patience, and a commitment to honesty and truth as we know it. We have cried and laughed, and pushed and pulled, and we understand that our tug of war is a constant and ever changing expression of a love that realizes its potential to grow through dissapointment, hurt and anger. The goals we share are focused, while the path that leads us there winds and intersects from time to time. We are two very different people with sometimes very polorized opinions who share a commitment to one another to be heard, understood, appreciated and loved--the way we need to be loved, not only in the ways we assume to love eachother. That is the part that requires work. It is rewarding and humbling work. Work that we have shared in therapy as a couple, to do our jobs as lovers, companions and friends as intimately as possible. The support and commitment to that resolve has been so overwhelming in the past months--I am and feel very lucky to have found this man.
He is far from perfect, and not without really annoying habits (...very gassy) But he is, everything I could have hoped for in the man that I would hope to share my life with one day. I look forward to our marriage, to our adventures, to discovering the father he will some day become, and the multi-pitch climb he will inevitably drag me up.
I am a lucky girl whose found her prince, a couple of democrats who treat me as though I were there own child, really really really kick ass- smart as hell- compassionate- funny as shit- beautiful FRIENDS, and as far as I am aware...GOOD HEALTH. I have never been happier in my life, than I am today.
