Finding Zen

It's Alive. IT'S ALIVE!!!

 

It's official. I've swallowed a contractor to have a look at my pipes - and he was at work ALL NIGHT LONG.  He must have checked the electrical box at the end of the tunnel, about 20 times.  My toes curling with each faulty flip of the switch.  Or perhaps that was just a jab to my cervix.  Over and over and over again.  I half expected to catch a beam of light shining between my legs from the glow of his headlamp.   And I'm actually double checking the floor length mirror this morning as I go by, to be sure an arm isn't dangling out of my crotch waving a white flag.  Or to hand me an invoice.

WHAT IS GOING ON IN THERE?  Suddenly I feel as though there is no room.  My little fish in his fishbowl who gives me butterfly kisses has morphed into a full grown man with a tool belt, and chronic hiccups, and not enough overhead light.  He was so busy last night I just laid there in awe.  Wishing he would go to sleep.  He didn't.

So this is the third trimester.  I can only imagine what these late night activities will feel like in the remaining 10 weeks, as he gains another 4..5..6...pounds.  Oh my.  The lack of sleep doesn't bother me so much, but the sensations are straight up - fucking weird.  In a pelvic exam from the inside out sorta way.  In a cross your legs so the human being inside you doesn't fall out sorta way.  That is some kinda kegel I don't know about.  Yeah, you go try and carry a bowling ball across the room with a wet paper towel and see how fun that is.  Watch your toes!

Abandoned at 28wks

So maybe not quite ABANDONED...but it just had a nice ring to it.  Melodrama is my favorite coping mechanism.

The boy has left for Montana for 10 days and I have been having a rough go of it this afternoon.  I'm mainly just flat out jealous (I don't get paid time off work and we sorta need the money about now) and not used to spending that kind of time away from him.  I have felt a rush of emotions I hadn't really anticipated - and trying my best to get over myself.  Because seriously?  Is there anything more unattractive than a 30 year old pregnant woman crying because she has to be alone for a few days?   I do have Marley - although the gas is pretty horrendous.

I'm just amazed I don't know what to do with myself.  As if it will be any different than when he is here - I just realize in this moment how much I'm going to miss him.

So here I am at 28wks (tomorrow - but he took the good camera so i had to sneak this shot in).  I feel great.  Physically.  I have the occasional aches and pains, but nothing to complain much about.  12 more weeks to go - and I just hope that this third trimester goes easy on me. 

Leaving you also with an extra shot (ive posted before) of our cabin view in Montana.  This is the heaven we love so much...and also a good photo explanation for that 'jealous' bit.

 

 

26wks + 1day

That one day is important.

 

Things are shifting it looks like (24wks - 26wks)...

 

Growth is good.  I was measuring behind at my last appt - which I didn't care so much for!  And holy crap, I'm down to 97 days.  What a trip...

My mom came to visit us this weekend - and I really enjoyed it.  We got some baby goodies and ate a lot (much like my previous weekends visit with Kat).  I love to eat.  Have I mentioned that before?

Why Georgia Ought To License Midwives

Do you want to know how uncool it is to be 25wks pregnant and call your dr's office to schedule an appt, only to confirm the appt, and then have them say "Oh by the way...as of July 13th we will no longer be offering midwife services". 

Ex-squeeze me?

Let me try and explain something to you.  My dear readers.  As this is an issue I have over the last 6 months become pretty passionate about.  That issue being the one that involves a woman's right to deliver her child in a calm and soothing environment with the least amount of intervention.  Yes I've become one of 'those people'.  And guess what?  I LIKE IT!  (Only I won't be eating placenta.)  The statistics for the majority of hospitals in Atlanta aren't too impressive.  We are talking cesarean rates of +30%. Almost 1 in 3 women.  No thanks.  Not for me.  And yes, I realize millions of babies are born of induced mothers with epidurals and they are perfectly fine and thats great for them.  We all get a Kudos for having a baby.  And mine wont be any bigger than yours so just chill out.  (My Kudos that is...)

I had chosen a practice with a reputation for excellent midwife service delivering at a hospital where I could have a water birth.  I do not know where my midwives will be going or what my options are now.  I am basically freaking out.  Right.  Now.

I am also now ACTUALLY considering a homebirth.  Shut up.

Because if I am unable to find a progressive enough OB practice that will deliver me at this particular hospital, or another midwife practice...I would rather go at this on my own terms, in my own home. 

Im also half inclined to cancel my stoopid stoopid 3hr glucose screen next week.  I get it.  I need to lay off the fried chocolate banana turnovers for breakfast.  Whatever. 

I bet people in France and Canada dont have this problem...

24 Down

16 more to go!  Quick update:  He is moving a TON, and I love it.  I belly gaze all day because it is just the coolest thing to play with him when he starts punching/kicking.  I have gained 14lbs so far and am feeling pretty great!  Sleeping is really uncomfortable and the peeing is nuts, but what do you expect.  I've started an 8wk session of prenatal yoga and had my first class last week - it felt really good to do all that stretching.  I get braxton hicks contractions fairly regularly and they are annoying but not painful.  We got the king sized tempurpedic!  The added real estate is wonderful, the firmness, will be some getting used to.  Zack is in heaven.